I want to go "Home"

For those of you who don't know, my mom has been in the hospital for one week now. I have managed to keep this information from my children even though I have gone to visit her nearly every night. When my kids have asked me where I am going I just reply with, "On an errand".

Anyway, Reagan started first grade this past Monday. On Tuesday night after I returned from visiting my mom Reagan came up to me with a pouty face. I reminded her it was time to sleep and she began to sob. She informed me how she was feeling like she never got to see me lately. She reminded me how she is gone at school all day and then when she gets home I am busy making dinner and then I leave. She was missing me!

I went and laid down with her for about 10 minutes and just held her. Then she said, "Mom, I want to go home." I was perplexed and said, "You are home." Reagan said, "No mom, home home. I want to go to my heavenly home." Then she cried a bit more and said, "I just miss my Father and Brother (Jesus) so much. I haven't seen them since I was born. It has been so long since I have seen them." I asked her if she remembered them and she replied with an exasperated voice, "He is my Brother!" With tears in my eyes, I expressed my empathy with how she was feeling. She proceeded by telling me how sad she was that Jesus had to die for all of us. That she wishes He didn't have to do that for all of us. I reminded her that if He hadn't done that then nobody could return to be with Father in Heaven. That Jesus Christ made that bridge so we could go back Home one day.

Mike gave her a blessing and we said a little prayer and she went to bed. What a great learning opportunity for me. I was reminded of how sweet that relationship is with our Father in Heaven and our Savior Jesus Christ. I am so grateful to have shared that moment with Reagan. She keeps me on track!