Miracles

Do you believe in miracles? I do. Now, I may not have seen mountains moved, but it certainly FELT that way this week.

As you know, my baby was transverse in my belly and we went in for a procedure called a version to turn our baby. When we arrived at the hospital the nurse checking us in asked us that if it didn't work were we going to go ahead and do a C-section? You could have knocked me over with a feather at that question because that had never been discussed. As naive as this may sound, I just assumed that we would go in and turn the baby. It never crossed my mind that it doesn't always work. My heart sank for almost a second. And then I remembered the priesthood blessing Mike had given me just a few short weeks ago. One thing specifically mentioned in the blessing was that the Lord knows how much it means to me to have a vaginal delivery. And that I didn't need to worry because He would make sure that was going to happen for me. It was contingent upon my faith and I just needed to trust Him. And I knew... I knew all would be well. I knew He would keep His promise and I let go of that momentary distress and fear.

We were escorted back to our room where they began to do all the prep work. After a couple hours the doctor arrived and pulled out the ultrasound machine. To our surprise he found that the baby had moved his head down! My heart soared! My prayers had been answered, the Lord heard me and kept His word. We were asked if we wanted to go home or go ahead and induce labor. The doctor mentioned that there was a chance that if we went home then our baby might move again, but he might not. We looked at each other and decided to go ahead and induce labor while the baby was cooperating.

They started me around 10:30. Around 2:00 they broke my water, and just before midnight our beautiful baby boy was born! He is healthy and strong and sweet and precious! He is the final addition to our family. We let the girls pick the name for him. It wasn't one that I had in mind, but it works for him and it's a cute one.

Now I close a chapter in my life; the chapter of pregnancy and childbirth. It is sobering to think I will never experience that again. It breaks my heart a little. And if we had the means to have more I wouldn't hesitate. But it is time. It has been confirmed to both of us that we are done. So I am pressing forward with gratitude in my heart that I had the opportunity to carry life inside me, to deliver life into this world, and to now nurture all those precious little ones that have been placed in my care. It is exciting and heart-wrenching all at the same time.

I take comfort in knowing that our family is eternal. One day all of them will grow up, move out and start family's of their own. I don't even want to think about that now! It makes me want to cry!!! The point is... though they will grow and become completely independant of me, they will always be my children, I will always be their mommy. We will be together forever. There is no greater blessing that God could bestow upon us than to give us the opportunity to have eternal life. What a merciful, loving Father in Heaven. I guess He knows a thing or two about the love of a child!

So here's to the next chapter. I am just relishing what time I have with the ones I have now and praying that time may begin to slow down a bit so I can fully take in all there is to enjoy with a newborn baby and small children in tow. Life is beautiful. God is good. I am grateful for this moment and the moment is NOW!